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Okay, I want to see if anyone actually does this.
If you play FF:XI and are on Midgardsormr, search out a Taru by the name of "Bonsaihinoki"
Go up to him and "/em makes the secret bonsai sign" and send a tell with the secret phrase of the month "Finge Benefits", I'll take your character name down and send you something random from what I have.
|Joe - 2/17/04||Laura - 2/9/04|
First of all, thanks for putting up with our break. Also, thanks to Dennis and Will for their pin-ups. Our hit count has been fairly consistent, even without new comic pages. Your continued interest is greatly appreciated.
I think I have managed to figure some stuff out. In the past month, I've done a lot of thinking and I seem to have reached a set of conclusions. I don't know if they're right or not (heck, I don't know if a "right" conclusion exists), but they seem to be conclusions that I can live with for the moment.
In a way, it's kinda ironic. I remember talking about finding who I am. That just seems silly, since everything that makes me who I am is always with me. In a way, I guess "finding myself" is an appropriate term, but I really didn't have far to look. The answer was pretty much always where it is. The real issue was that I couldn't accept it. I was denying the person that I was and am, or at least big parts of that person. It may or may not be obvious, but I'm talking in particular about dreams.
I still don't know if it's wrong or not to have impossible dreams, and really, I don't care anymore. The dreams that I have are a big part of the person that I am. To deny any of them would be denying myself. There are all sorts of axioms and whatnot about dreams, like "It can't really be a dream if it's attainable", or "no dream is ever given without the power to realize it", but who really understands the nature of dreams anyway? A part of what makes dreams so alluring is their mysterious nature. Maybe they're really messages, or maybe they're really just cruel jokes, but I'm not going to dwell on that anymore, because I t think anyone can really ever say for sure what they really are. I have come to accept the type of person that I am, and that type of person is one that chases dreams.
I have also found that m the type of person that t like to give up. It leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Am I being foolish? Maybe... Might I get hurt because I set my mark so high? Probably... But, if I t follow my heart and continue to chase these dreams, I would never be able to forgive myself. In 10, 20 or whatever years from now, I would rather look back and see that I had spent that time chasing a dream and failing than wondering if I might have ever attained that dream if I had only reached for it. s who I am, and I think I have denied myself long enough. Confidence has never really been a strong point for me, so I think I ended up turning to the acceptance of others as a measure of what I should or t do. s time for me to start listening to my heart and being who I really am instead of relying on others to tell me who I should be.
It seems that despite my resolve to be more organized, I'm not doing a very good job keeping up with my..er, commentaries. I guess I just don't always have something say, or maybe I'm just too lazy. And well, this past month, it was kind of nice just to not do anything EF related. I played video games (Disgaea, Prince of Persia) and worked on some new art. I haven't really worked on any art of my own since I graduated college, and since I'm hoping to start-up a freelance career in the near future (I need $$$!), I really want to redevelop my portfolio.
But my little break helped a lot. I definitely feel a lot better than I did a month ago and I think I'm ready to get back into the swing of things. But there's a lot to do in the coming months, so here's hoping I don't get bogged down again ;_;
And finally, a big thanks to Dennis from F.O.G. Club and Will from Particle Sphere for the pieces they did for us. I'm honored that this site has had it's first ever guest pieces. And though I'm sure it's obvious, as a side note to our increasing flood of spam, if anyone wants to e-mail us, just be sure to label your mail something that's discernable from the usual junk mail titles so we don't delete anything by accident. See you guys next week.
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